Saturday, May 25, 2013

An Excerpt From Birdman

(In honor of Memorial Day, an excerpt of Birdman, including the foreword to the second edition, copyright 2012)

Foreword – Second Edition

It has been almost a dozen years since Billy Kagan, aka Bert Smith the Birdman wandered the Irish hinterlands seeking his soul. Much has changed. The Celtic Tiger has come and gone. The world seems to have survived the passage into a new millennium, albeit semi-fractured in its consciousness and its ability to carry on.
It is instructive to look back on the world Billy was watching in those wild-eyed days.  We seemed to be perched on the edge of a yawning chasm, pursued by the ghosts of our former misdeeds, and uncertain of a future providence. Nowadays, a new generation looks to the birds, “perchers, songsters, blown by the wind and content to sit in the early and late days of the lingering sun, faith in perpetual sustenance, sharp-eyed observers of the moribund and settled,” as the waves of creative destruction crash down again on the rocks of these shores.

It is time to bring Billy forward on the bridge he foresaw being built, bypassing the architecture and snares of the old city, into a new land of opportunity. This electronic edition of Birdman is for the reader who knows that sometimes you have to step back in order to move on.

Chapter One

The countless ways of yearning, the winged and white-backed beasts, crossed the ocean behind Kagan, in hot pursuit. The Atlantic beat against the cliffs of this present citadel, laying siege to his dreams. The light of day gave a nightmarish aspect to the misted fields, the silent cobbled street with its electric cables sagging and shrieking in the wind, the three public houses, the post office in requisite green, the shop and the sharp hairpin up the hill. Across the water in one direction lay Europe, in the other America. Goat Island, the last spurs of the land’s spiny back, seemed in a winter’s dawn to have been thrown up out of the sea by an improbable hand.

“Sit down, Mr. Smith,” said Francis, the eldest brother. He rose from his chair at the small rectangular table.

“No, that’s all right. I’ll take the plate up to my room,” Kagan said.

“You can sit here if you please,” said Francis, pulling out his chair in a gesture of invitation. Murphy senior grunted an assent. Mrs. Murphy cleared her plate and Francis’s plate away from the table. The rest of the Murphys resumed eating as if on cue, satisfied that the situation with Kagan would resolve itself one way or another without impacting their ability to finish breakfast.

Kagan would have insisted on going upstairs with his food, but thought of Bert Smith, birdwatcher and student of man, and accepted the offer. He walked around the table by the steamed window, the sill with its statuette of Mary in her cloak of sky blue, so unlike the Irish sky this particular morning, and sat down as Mrs. Murphy loaded his plate with food in whiplike motions from the range.

Francis lit a cigarette, while Murphy senior directed a comment at Kagan he did not understand. He wiped his mouth in a scholarly fashion and asked Mr. Murphy to repeat himself.

“You’ll be walkin’ the cliffs for the birds this mornin’, Mr. Smith,” said Murphy.

“That’s exactly what I plan,” said Kagan.

Murphy mumbled to himself, mumbles Kagan took as tokens of disbelief, and his stomach sank. To play Smith would require more than imagination. It would take balls. Kagan suspected Smith would be of a taciturn disposition and so kept quiet, finishing his food.

The Murphys gathered in twos and threes by the front door, said goodbye to Mrs. Murphy and headed out across the lawn to the Hiace van and the Toyota Carrera on the curbside followed closely by Heidi, the yapping dachshund. Kagan observed through the open front door beyond Mrs. Murphy’s midriff as the two vehicles wheezed into action and drove off. Mrs. Murphy closed the door, leaving Heidi sniffing for remains outside on the wet lawn.

“Not a very nice day, actually,” said Kagan.

“’Tis not the day but the fish that are in it,’ said Mrs. Murphy. “You could do with a good lie-in, Mr. Smith, you look half dead. I’ll get you some more tea.”

“Call me Bert. And thank you, Mrs. Murphy.”

She poured him another cup of tea and seemed unfazed by his forwardness. Apparently Smith was an intimate, theatrical sort of man and had a winning way with older women. This disclosure, along with the breakfast, went a way towards allaying the gnawing pain in his gut, a product of pints the previous night. The beer flowing through him seemed to have eroded a large chunk of his liver.

Upstairs, Kagan gathered up the binoculars and the bottle of Bushmills, put on waterproofs, porpkpie hat and boots, all of which except for the Bushmills he’d acquired at a sporting goods outlet in Mallow on his way down from Limerick, and descended the stairs again. Mrs. Murphy was dusting down the table, Heidi sleeping in her basket by the range.

“You could do better than going out on a wet day like today.”

“Ah, but I have my duties to the birds.”

“I suppose it’s one thing or another.”

“Very true. I’m just a bird-watching fool, Mrs. Murphy.”

“I know. I know. And I’m thinking that old David Bellamy himself would give up on the birds and stay inside with the fire going on a day like today.”

“Yes, well. It’s a severe sort of calling.”

“Not for the faint-hearted.”


“And you seem yourself a sort of stay at home man. Although there is a touch of the rough to you, as if you’d seen better days.”

“You flatter me, Mrs. Murphy.”

Heidi stirred in her basket but thought better of it as Kagan went out of the house. He walked past the sleeping village, folded up on itself in the mist, and climbed the mine road up the long hill to the top of the island, hopping a ditch gurgling in the gossamer rain and over a short wall, his boots squelching in the mud.

The rain blew in from the southwest, the direction of nightmares. Sitting on the edge of the cliff, Kagan could see the ocean far below him bashing against the rocks. Through the binoculars he scanned the waves for a sign monsters or vessels of calamity. But all he could see were swooping gulls along the lower portion of the cliffs, some cormorants skimming the water, and a group of seals further along the rocky coast. There was nothing out there but the wind and the waves as far as the eye could see. Kagan clung to his perch, pre pared well for this sort of battle, facing down of fate, manning the watchtowers of the imagination, seeking with the radar of the mind for friend or foe. They would be coming after him. They always did. They had the patience of landowners, the law on their side. All Kagan had was the waves. He wiped the water off the lens of the binoculars and put it away. Unscrewing the top of the whiskey bottle, he regretfully considered his situation.


Barry’s was strangely silent, although a good number of people sat at tables and three or four at the bar. Barry, a man of gruesome demeanor and appalling personality, had that morning received notice from his solicitor in Lamareen that the sale of his pub had been completed, something he’d been trying to pull off for ten years in a half-hearted attempt to change his life. But the sudden idea of a Dublin man, a stranger, getting to stand behind the counter and glare at people who came down the steps had put him in a total funk, a mood which rubbed off on the clientele, despite the fact that most people who knew Barry would not miss his service in the pub, as he was miserly, with a long memory, and unforgiving of debts.

Kagan sat at a corner table finishing his lunch and admiring Barry. He had a really ugly face, glaring and suspicious, but Kagan intuited that Barry was misunderstood, and in a different situation, under perhaps ideal circumstances, may have turned out to be a decent sort of man, respectful and considerate. Kagan’s meager awareness was enough to set his mind reeling with incommunicable insights. He sat and drank his beer, grateful for his private thoughts.

The pub’s yellow walls reverberated with the light coming through the opaque, low set windows. The brass beer taps and puddles of water on the counter reflected this mysterious incandescence, while the faces of Barry’s customers were lowered and secretive, grim expressions broken only by half-winking, jeering smiles and cackles of delight.

A man approached Kagan’s table from the bar carrying a full pint glass of beer which he set next to Kagan’s half empty one.

The man studied him momentarily while Kagan garnered his own impressions. He grinned, more like a grimace, showing a row of crooked, brown lower teeth.

You bein’ a stranger here you need to know a few t’ings,” said the man.

“What are they?” asked Kagan.

“The man who owns this pub is standing over there behind the bar. His name is Donal Barry and he’s selling the place to another man from Dublin and none of us here will be sorry to see the back of him.”

“I see.”

“Yes, I’m a blow-in myself. Where do ye come from?” he asked, poking his face next to Kagan’s and screwing up his lips.


He stepped back, considering.

“You don’t seem a half-bad sort of American.”

“Thank you.”

Kagan tipped back his glass.

“What brings you here and what keeps you here?”

The man was still standing in an idiotic way before him. Kagan put the glass down.

“Birds,” he sighed.

“Birds it is and birds it shall remain,” said the man.

“Yeah,” said Kagan, hoping not to have to be more specific. Luckily the man seemed to require no more information. It had been perhaps an inspired choice of line.

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